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Her Loss

Her Loss

My gain is her loss.   I hear โ€œMom.โ€ She hears silence.   I feel hugs. She just has the memory of his arms around her.   I see smiles and eyes that light up with excitement. She has to close her eyes to see his face.   I hear giggles and laughs....

John Brink: Against All Odds- A Review

John Brink: Against All Odds- A Review

Do you ever watch a movie and feel your stomach drop when the good guy gets into a ring with the bad guy? Youโ€™re rooting for the good guy, but you have your doubts. You watch as they circle one another and then suddenly the opponent lunges. Before you even realize...

His Voicemail

His Voicemail

๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’๐’ ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’‰๐’‚๐’๐’ˆ ๐’–๐’‘ ๐’‚ ๐’„๐’๐’–๐’‘๐’๐’† ๐’•๐’Š๐’Ž๐’†๐’” ๐’‚ ๐’…๐’‚๐’š. ๐‘ฐ ๐’…๐’๐’โ€™๐’• ๐’‰๐’‚๐’—๐’† ๐’‚๐’๐’š๐’•๐’‰๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’•๐’ ๐’”๐’‚๐’š. ๐‘ฐ ๐’‹๐’–๐’”๐’• ๐’˜๐’‚๐’๐’• ๐’•๐’ ๐’‰๐’†๐’‚๐’“ ๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’—๐’๐’Š๐’„๐’†.   ๐‘ด๐’š ๐’”๐’Š๐’”๐’•๐’†๐’“ ๐’‰๐’‚๐’” ๐’„๐’‚๐’๐’„๐’†๐’๐’๐’†๐’… ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’…๐’‚๐’…โ€™๐’” ๐’‘๐’‰๐’๐’๐’† ๐’๐’Š๐’๐’†. ๐‘ฐ๐’ ๐’๐’†๐’”๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’ ๐’‚ ๐’˜๐’†๐’†๐’Œ, ๐’Š๐’•โ€™๐’๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’† ๐’„๐’–๐’• ๐’๐’‡๐’‡. ๐‘บ๐’ ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’ˆ๐’Š๐’—๐’†๐’” ๐’Ž๐’† ๐’๐’†๐’”๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’‚๐’ 7 ๐’…๐’‚๐’š๐’” ๐’•๐’ ๐’‰๐’†๐’‚๐’“ ๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’—๐’๐’Š๐’„๐’†.   ๐‘บ๐’ ๐‘ฐ ๐’„๐’‚๐’๐’. ๐‘จ๐’๐’…...

Turn It Down

Turn It Down

I get stuck in my head and have a hard time getting out.   People tell me to stop overthinking, to get out of my head. But itโ€™s a hard place to get out of once youโ€™re there.   The self doubt. The voice saying โ€˜you canโ€™t do thisโ€™ is hard to ignore.   I...

Donโ€™t Measure My Steps

Donโ€™t Measure My Steps

These are my steps, stepping out of my comfort zone. These are my steps, leading me in this direction. These are my steps. To you, my steps may be unnecessary. To you, my steps my be immeasurable. But I donโ€™t need you to measure my steps. You may question the...

I See Me

I See Me

I look at her and I see me. Not necessarily her nose or her chin or her lips or her ย smile. Itโ€™s her eyes. In her eyes I see me. I see her excitement and her happiness and her frustration and her sadness. And I feel my excitement and my happiness and my frustration...

And Iโ€™m Stumped…

And Iโ€™m Stumped…

The other day my friend asked me a question that stumped me. We were having a rather deep conversation and I mentioned how itโ€™s becoming more difficult to write authentically about my kids because I donโ€™t want to embarrass them or share private information about them....

This Is More Important

This Is More Important

I think about the dishes soaking in the sink. I squeeze my arms a little tighter around Sam as we stand outside watching Finley, our dog, chase moths around the yard. This is more important.   I look at the pile of clean laundry sitting on the chair, waiting to...

Stanley and Mom Date

Stanley and Mom Date

Stanley and I had our โ€œStanley and Momโ€ date last weekend. ย (Mark, my husband, and I have decided we need to spend some more one on one time with each of our three kids.) Stanley and I decided that we would go to a farm and go horseback riding!!! โ€œHorseback ridingโ€...

Sam and Momโ€™s Date

Sam and Momโ€™s Date

Well, I screwed that one up. Sam and I went on our Sam and Mom date yesterday. (Mark, my husband, and I have decided we need to spend some more one on one time with each of our three kids.) Sam wanted to go to a D-Box movie, something neither of us have ever done...